by Sanfung » Fri Jun 15, 2012 2:12 am
Pete's mention of the "Just Do It" phrase really struck a chord with me, so I hope it's not too offensive to resurrect this thread yet again. I'm having a particularly unique problem with my training, and I've done a lot of reading on Qigong's utility for correcting depression. Nevertheless, I hope it's inoffensive if I ask it here. Strangely, in a way, the problem was initially irritated by my training regimen.
To make a very long story short, my mother has been trying to say that she would like to learn Taekwondo. I live with my parents. Apparently, she has this idea that since I started training, she needs to do something to make up for it as though I were causing her to feel lazy. To be honest, I feel guilt about that fact in its own right as though my training were doing her a disservice. I know that this is a disordered manner of thinking, but as I said I do suffer from serious depression. Rational thinking doesn't always win out.
Naturally, I would love to encourage her to study something, but I know very well that she never likes to stick to things. Apparently she's been looking up various Taekwondo videos on Youtube, and I politely warned her that while I admit that I myself don't know much about the proper motions for those positions, it certainly appeared as though she were going to hurt herself. I'm very worried about her, because she's done other things like this before and gotten herself hurt.
Well, she's fine with me and she admitted that what she was doing could possibly have been dangerous for her. To be perfectly honest, she gets on kicks about things occasionally. She'll probably have forgotten it ever happened by this time next week. All is well and good, right?
I'm still having trouble with the issue. I feel like I've somehow talked back to her, even though she was fine with it. This returns to the issue of blaming myself. I feel guilty and depressed about the entire situation and I am projecting it back onto my own training. I feel lackluster. This happens a lot when I get into a depressed slump. I wanted to ask if it's better in these situations to "Just Do It," returning to Pete's answer to the previous poster, and jump right back into an appropriate regimen or whether it's better to wait a few days, try something else (perhaps a focus on the Eight Brocades and follow Dvivid's apropos advice about adequate walking)?