In some ways I definately agree with you Joeblast. As a practitioner now with Taiji as a martial art first and foremost, I kinda have a different perspective than I once had before.
I was able to successfully teach 100% of people who
never studied Taijiquan and really didnt believe in Qi, within 2 minutes the unbendable arm technique which utilizes relaxation and Qi instead of muscle force. The people had no idea what Qi was, only heard the term before in the past. What this tells
me, it is not as important to develop a feeling of circulation, as it is to relax and concentrate on the task at hand so to speak.
Qi is already within the body. we can store and develop more Qi, but when we familiarize ourselves too much with circulation and what we "should" be feeling then its harder to master even the simplest tasks. I now associate that kind of Qigong with Wushu martial arts, it may be effective in the hands of a "master", but its mostly for show and tell. How can you call a cartwheel (Shaolin Wushu, there were no cartwheels in traditional Shaolin) effective in a fight?... And this
show isnt for others, its for yourself. It complicates matters that need not be complicated. Qi already runs through small and grand circualtion. You should learn how (the Qi flows), where (the Qi flows) and why (it flows in that direction), but people concern theirselves with the what, or in other words, feeling and trying to control the flow. All we really need to know is Qi follows Yi, Qi follows blood, and Qi and Li are related and inseparable. Qi knows the way. It IS nature. Daoism and Taiji are about working with nature not controlling it. Relaxation is the key to greater Qi. You focus on the enemy when you hit, not how the Qi flows to reach the enemy, so why train to feel whats already happening naturally? Cuz people like the control. I also fell a victim to that mistake for 4 years.
To show you what the unbendable arm is, if you dont already know, and to test my theory to see if Im lying or not, try this, you will need a partner:
hold your hand out in front of your body face hieght, dont matter if its to the front or to the side. Relaxe in a qigong posture, head held as if extended from above, eyes looking up (never look down in this practice, or it wont work), neck relaxed, shoulders relaxed, dropped and concave, chest concave, ribs dropped, lower dantian sinks till huiyin pushes out and forward, legs should feel as they wiegh 1000 lbs. have your partner place one forearm on the inside bend of your arm, and push down, and pull towards them, and use thier other hand to push, at your wrist, the arm towards your body, using all their wieght and muscle. First time resist with just muscle strength. Even if your stronger they should be able to bend your arm pretty easy. The second time, relaxe the arm completely. keep your eyes up, and just feel the point in the center of the palm. Keep your mind there, nothing else matters. Tell them to push the same way again. They WILL NOT be able to bend your arm, I dont care how strong they are. That is your Qi. They may be able to lift your arm up, but it will not bend. If you sink further and feel your elbow, they wont be able to lift up anymore. Now, after you established you can do the unbendable arm, try it this way, as they try to bend your arm, try "leading" Qi from the lower dantian out to the center of the palm. They will still bend your arm easily. Relaxation is the TRUE secret of Taijiquan. The mind plays only a small roll through intention by telling the Qi to strengthen the arm. After practicing so long, the mind doesnt even have to mention it. It happens naturally.
As far as the form goes, and other physical training, Yes, to learn the form, you do have to pay attention and learn with the mind, BUT at the same time, the mind makes it harder to remember and to keep hold of the forms. The best way I learn Taiji is to not think about the forms. First learn the footwork. My teacher taught me the first Shaolin stepping form, holding each posture 9 seconds. Then I incorporated it into my form. Then perform the individual parts of the forms with a teacher (video/book/etc) one to 3 times, then practice yourself 9 times. The first time you may need to think, but then you should stop. It will naturally become body memory after practicing 9 times for most people, but that doesnt mean stop practicing. If you stop you will loose it. And if you dont practice you wont advance. Once you learn the form, and you can do it without thinking, you have to learn to relaxe. your arms should be as if they are dead, and lead by the hips, and only go where their supposed to go cuz you know the dance, not because your willing or forcing them to go there. The more you can relaxe the stronger your Qi. The best way to test this is brushing your hand next to your face during some movements, and you should feel your Qi on your face as your hand passes. The more you relaxe the stronger the feeling.
The people that post on this forum has helped me a lot, so I will continue to post what I think will help you in return and the secrets I feel you need to know, that I dont think would fall into the wrong hands. I dont want anyone to think Im a know it all or think Im better than anyone else, because I dont, Im just confident in what Im learning cuz its been proven to me. and I encourage you to test what Im posting as well. I still have a lot to learn and I will continue to share my knowledge with those interested, because I remember my frustration at not having a reliable source, and this was the only one as to what I WAS learning.